To be alive or to have a chance to be here is one of the rare chances in almost 200 billion chances that you would ever get in this life.
It is pure luck but it comes with its own burdens because you need something to sustain this life before you lose it or before you usher in its expiration date. Because not everyone is lucky enough to have this chance, a journey to the hospital explains this much better, that you are one of the lucky species that has managed to survive the brutality of nature.
The hospital brings you the sad realities and the conditions of human existence-sickness, pain, hate, betrayal and people struggling to pay the hospital bills but your own health, often overlooked, is something that you hardly appreciate because you are busy with your own issues, the everyday problems.
As we all know, the timer is always on and it is counting down and with every birthday celebration, you are actually getting closer to the finish line, a reality that we must accept, no matter how painful it is. It is the reality of our existence. But between the beginning and the end, there is life itself in the middle. You live it with its joys and pains, the sweet and sour, the good, the bad and even the ugly. Good or bad, it is your choice to be happy or sad. You take some risks. You win. You also lose. You break and build. The dots connect, they don’t but it is still worth it.
You make mistakes. You love and hate at the same time. You borrow people’s money and never pay it back. You chase opportunities and sometimes people and you are only exhausted before it never ends, let me put it this way, you are not satisfied with what you have because the nature of man dictates that you don’t find satisfaction in life. That is why a man marries a second wife if the first one makes him happy because he believes the two of them can make him happier or let me say, a fulfilled man.
For a number of reasons, you will do everything to improve your life. You will start a business. You go to school. You will look for a job, an opportunity, a meaning to make your life and your family better but it doesn’t work a lot most times and this is different for everyone, some succeed and do so exceedingly but others remain in Sisyphean struggle, pushing boulders up a mountain each morning only for the boulder to roll back after every push and all that they will do is to start all over again, each day, for the rest of their lives. Don’t expect what works for the president’s family to work with the family of a bread maker in the Konyo-Konyo market.
This is why we have billionaires and those at the bottom of the economic pyramid. The world can never be a levelled ground. There has to be someone who wastes food and another who starves in extreme poverty. This is also why there are thousands of people in hospital beds, going through a series of dialysis and prayerfully waiting for a kidney transplant, while on the other hand; there are thousands of young people, so healthy and strong, drinking alcohol excessively until their organs hurt.
I am not saying drinking is bad but too much of it will actually make you see a doctor one day. But wait, I am not being judgmental here. I am saying that life is 100 per cent your problem and you alone know how it started and where you are heading. Nobody has the right to decide how to live it or how to fix it.
Everyone has his or her own plans, especially on how they want to wait for the end of the road. And in the process, we make a lot of decisions, good and bad ones. We fall in love and cut some people off. We want things to happen and most things don’t really make sense.
Nonetheless, you commit to it all your life, even when you are not sure it will work. The biggest problem today is not the Kiir administration; you want to be everything you see in other people or be more successful than or like the next person next door. It is the cause of your pain. Why not let things flow naturally?
Remember, everyone has his or her unique journey, completely different from yours and it is them alone who know the years of hard work they put into getting there. Create your own path too and pursue it. Don’t worry about the outside world because it certainly doesn’t care about you. This is why after losing, the beautiful world moves on and continues to do so without you and it all comes down to one thing, that we are not that special and not the center of the world. So, stop wasting your time throwing a pity party and redirect that energy towards yourself.